im going to end xanga. im going insane.i need help.i dont wanna live like this. im sad.i need love.i need a big big warm family to protect me.i hate it. why am i living like this.why am i cryin. why do i gatta go all over the house goin insane and lookin for my moms picture.its all gone.its all gone.that bitch told him to not bring any of my moms stuff in the new house.its not like i have lots of my moms pictures with me and now they all gone.i looking everywhere.i only found like 5 and i got some somewhere else.but i had more. what am i suppose to do.i loose everything am im goin crazy.i want my mom alot.i just think im not ganna see her no more and that she existed once, that she was living with me and being my mom.i lost her.she wont come back to me.
i wanna live with my sister.its like im living in someone elses house.its not my house no more.i dont belong here.
if i dont ask people if they love me i wont no they love me.if i dont i feel unwanted and i its hard to ask do you love me.i ask my sister that before i left kaz she's my half sister and i love her alot but i donno if she loves me.but you know.she said she loves me.i feel wanted to her like i have a family.i have dina emy and dan.they're my family.
i just wish when i grow up i wont be like my dad.kaz he didnt get that much love when he was growing up so thats why now he's like.
i just wanna have a family.and living happly ever after.like a movie.im just a kid.i cant live on my own.
i need to express my ways. i just did. xanga has memories. i donno if i wanna continue.
its not like any ones ganna read this.im just lonely.
" everybody needs love. "
If you're askin if I need you,
the answer is forever! 
If you're askin if I'll leave you,
the answer is never! 
If your askin what I value,
the answer is You! 
If you're askin if I love you,
that answer is I DO! 
**Facts of Life**
1. At least 5 people in this world, love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6.You mean the world to someone.
7. Without you, someone may not be living.
 
8. You are special and unique,in your own way.  
9. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you. 
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.
13. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel, then they'll know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great.
16. You must be a great friend, because someone gave this too you. If you care about them, send it back.
> I'm Sorry...
>
> For all the mean things I might have said.
>
> I'm Sorry...
>
> For all the things I did or didn't do.
>
> I'm Sorry...
>
> If I ever ignored you.
>
> I'm Sorry...
>
> If I ever made you feel bad or put you down.
>
> I'm Sorry...
>
> If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you.
>
> I LuvYou...
>
> Don't ever forget that! Through bad times and good,
>
> I'll always be here for you.
>
> I am Sorry...
>
> For everything wrong I've ever done.
>
> I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never
> comes?
>
> What if you never get to say good-bye or give a BIG
> hug to the people you care about?
>
> What if you never get to say I'm sorry or I love
> you?
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